Basically I don't have a huge problem if she'd quit(well to the extend that I dont personally know her and thus cant see her anywhere else than in cams and it seems I really enjoy seeing her, I suppose I do, but excluding that), if its to her best interest. I would prefer to know ofcourse, but studios are like that(I did try to ask -though embarassed- some of the other models, but I didn't succeed).
I'd compromise with knowing she's alive, not hurt, not in jail, not overdosed in drugs, not in forced labor, doing something she honestly likes etc. but I can't know that either. So her long abscence given the situation in the country and circumstances, worries me and is a torture of a kind, despite knowing she did it before. Yet some people are like that, leaving everything behind for random amounts of time. And of course its her work. Why would she give a damn about anything when she needs a break? Still I can't worry less. Anyway, I hope all is ok and I'm just over-reacting.